I’m not perfect, but no one is, and I recognize that. I’m a good guy honestly, but I have done things that im not proud of such as messing up prom for a very amazing girl. She deserved going to prom but what do I do? Just ruin it for her. She’s one of the most amazing person I have ever met and I truly feel bad for what I did to her. How could I possibly ask her to prom but be fooling around with another girl? I’m such an idiot for that. I could of had something with her but no I decided to mess around with a girl who honestly just wasn’t worth it. And well it happened I can’t change anything I made her not go to prom because of my assholeness. This girl is so amazing and good hearted that I honestly don’t feel I deserve her even if I want to kiss her so bad. She, even with me doing all this to her, still talks to me and even more amazingly hung out with me recently. I was so happy when she said yes to us hanging out alone but I didn’t and still don’t feel right having the right to be any near her. I’m leaving to college soon and honestly all I want before leaving is a kiss from her..a kiss I don’t deserve but long for…but before I even attempt for a kiss I have to apologize, which honestly I.should’ve done last time we hanged out alone. I will tho I will.
You slowly watch yourself drift away from everyone. You feel like there’s no point in trying to stay close with them because no one ever sticks around forever. From talking every day and night to not knowing what to say. It’s a pretty sad feeling, but then again i’m starting not to care anyways. Being alone is boring, but in the end that’s how it’s going to be. Man, i hate this feeling.